What if everything that has happened in your life was leading you somewhere?
What if there is a purpose, bigger then the hurt or betrayal, that you had to experience?
What if you are exactly who & where you are supposed to be, in this exact moment?
I’m sitting in my Wonder Room this morning, scrolling around Facebook and Instagram. How many have liked my post this morning? Oh, there’s a new notification, I better see what that is.
Ops, I’m supposed to be updating my bio. I’ve got to email 1 more person this morning. Don’t forget the blog you committed to writing.
Can you feel the difference in these 2 places of being?
One has me looking inward, becoming still and listening. The other place has me wandering in the land of trying to do something and not do it very well.
So, back to my question, what if?
Our Deepest Fear
by Marianne Williamson
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness
That most frightens us.
We ask ourselves.
Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of god.
Your playing small
Does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking
So that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine,
As children do.
We were born to make manifest
The glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us;
It’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine,
We unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we’re liberated from our own fear,
Our presence automatically liberates others.
The word that I feel as I sit with her poem is freedom, living my life with full permission. I get to make the choices I want to make, I get to say what I want to say, I get to do what I want to do and I am willing to accept responsibility for myself.
I did an exercise with my coach last week. She called it Beth’s Unique Creative Brilliance. I got to relive my life from a whole different perspective. I shared some highs & some really dark times. These are my stories. They make me who I am today. I spent a lot of my life feeling shame for who I was. I don’t belong, I’m not loveable, nobody wants me. I don’t have that shame anymore. I’ve met it head on, with the help of my coaches & a couple of therapists.
What was so brilliant was seeing for the first time how resilient & strong & badass I am. When I found myself with no home to live in, I moved to Toronto & was hired by the 1st job I applied for. When I decided to stop smoking, I did, December 31, 2005 was the last cigarette I ever smoked. When I decided I was ready to lose weight, I did.
I make shit happen and I’m really good at it. And, even in the muck and darkest times in my life, I knew how to take care of myself & make different choices.
So, why do I share all this today? If we were sitting across from each other, I would ask you how do you feel right now? What’s going on inside?
What are your stories? How do they define you?
I was asked to speak at a Fundraiser in April this year. I shared my story. I would love to share it with you in hopes that you can feel that free self within you.
I’m looking for 3 women who are ready to take a journey inward to discovering their truth. Is that you?
Respond to me with this link. Let’s talk!
What are you waiting for?