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ACCEPTANCE – gulp!

I have a confession to make and I don’t want to make it. So, before the reveal, I’ll share a little background as to why I’m doing this today.

10 years ago (wow!) I lost my breasts due to reconstruction surgery & I resigned from my company. It was an excruciatingly painful time in my life.

Moving into my basement was the ultimate shame I placed on myself.972859b271668d52cffe9d572e4aac81

I was a failure. I had lost everything. What was wrong with me?

This got heavy fast, didn’t it? Part of me is thinking, ok, now what do I write?

I was so angry, I couldn’t understand why all this had happened to me. I’m so grateful today that somewhere deep inside me, there was a knowing that I needed to talk to someone. That’s a whole other conversation for another day.

As I started to share my story more & more, I remember tasting what freedom felt like. People weren’t rejecting me. I had been so afraid that if others knew what had happened they wouldn’t like me.

 

ACCEPTANCE

The gift of acceptance is the letting go of shame, that there’s something wrong with me…..

 

 

 

 

THE REVEAL

I was diagnosed with Type 2 Diabetes about 1.5 years ago. I hate it. It’s like I have a label that says, you don’t know how to take care of yourself. You must be bad. I don’t think more then 6 people knew till last summer. I was prescribed 3 Metformin a day.

In January I committed to doing whatever it took to get off the pills & reverse the diagnosis. In Beth style, I ate the same healthy food every single day & continued to exercise. BORING!!! RIGID!!!! I’m grateful that I am down 25lbs & am only taking 2 pills per day.

I’m sharing this today, because I haven’t accepted this wholly & completely. I see myself slipping & eating sweets & the carbs that aren’t good for me. This voice inside says, “it’s ok, you can do better tomorrow”.

As long as I stay focused on where I’m not, I’ll never be able to change where I am.

So, the question becomes, What’s here?

One thing I’d mastered in life was being able to know everything that’s wrong with anything that could possibly go wrong or be wrong in seconds! How exhausting is that? I used to call it a Super Power.

I have a much better Super Power to introduce to you!

Eleanor_Roosevelt_curiosity_quote_nddi9zCuriosity!

 

Yes, that’s right, it’s a Super Power. Try it! Get curious about something right now & see how you feel? Are your senses tingling? Is there an anticipation for something unexpected that might be delightful?

 

Instead of getting out the paper & writing down everything that’s wrong with me having Type 2 Diabetes, when I step into Curious Beth, I start wondering about all the delicious foods that I haven’t even tried or know about. See how it can begin?

Here are a few steps I’m taking towards acceptance.

  1. I’m not hiding anymore
  2. Reaching out to my coach for more understanding
  3. Self-compassion

What would you like to break free from? What’s here?

Curious? Let’s talk!

Till next time.

Bodacious Beth!

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  • Snnet June 1, 2016, 8:15 am

    I love your courage to be so open; you inspire me

    • Beth June 1, 2016, 8:25 am

      Thank you!

  • Miriam Linderman June 1, 2016, 10:33 am

    Beth, this is a breathtaking revelation that we all need to hear. Shame has no place in our lives no matter what. Here’s to all of us loving ourselves deeply and always -as the humans we are, and as growing consciousness and awareness. We are so much more than we know, and you demonstrate so many aspects of that – courage, permission, daring, boldness, passion and love. Your words are healing and matter greatly. Thank you for caring enough about all of us to come forward with heart and compassion.

    • Beth June 1, 2016, 10:42 am

      Thank you so much for your kind words. I dream of a world filled with heart & compassion where shame doesn’t exist.

  • Jackie Shaw June 1, 2016, 10:42 am

    You are Beautiful Beth inside and out love you <3

    • Beth June 1, 2016, 10:44 am

      Thank you Jackie! The beauty that lives in you is what allows you to see the beauty in me! Here’s to growing beauty in the world!!

  • Sheila June 1, 2016, 11:55 am

    Beth , I knew when I met you on Saturday that you were a special person . You are first a gifted writer but also you have a gift to uplift others but telling them about yourself and the problems you face. We all have problems and sometimes when someone else talks about their problems we can sit back and think about things with a clearer mind and yes even accept those problems as challenges rather than problems . I enjoyed reading your post and congratulations on having the courage to open up to others . Bravo !

  • Kathy June 1, 2016, 12:18 pm

    Beautiful, Beth! I know that with this one courageous and vulnerable post you will inspire and move others to release their shame, accept who they are now and begin their own unique journey. And that is just the beginning, isn’t it? Thank you for being willing to show up fully in the world and lead the way for others. hugs!

  • Linda June 1, 2016, 12:59 pm

    Wonderwoman!!! That’s what you are to me. Great post.

  • LILIANE DE VRIES June 2, 2016, 11:52 am

    Love the honesty Beth! This is you every time I see you. Keep living the dream!

  • Cecily Victor June 8, 2016, 4:14 pm

    Thank you Beth for sharing all of you! Allows me to love all of you! The silence and secrecy come from us and mostly from fear of being judged by others. Awesome courage in sharing your story in service of helping others bring their stories to the surface, so that that self-compassion can lighten it. Your exemplifying the courage of sharing so deeply is inspirational!

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Beth’s fiercely courageous life has been built on the premise of don’t settle. She is a survivor who has beaten the odds by taking charge of her own destiny.

From finance, to film, to successful entrepreneur, Beth has always lived life driven by her own rules. Her innate ability to make things happen & ‘get it done’ has lead her to founding “The Bodacious Way.”

Beth, a CPCC, champions women to uncover what’s beneath the stories they tell themselves that keep them living a life less then they desire.

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